It’s Been A Long Time

It really hasn’t been too long, at least not for me. I kept returning back to my website to see how long it’d been since I updated and as badly as I wanted to update this abandoned place, I just didn’t have anything to say. I kind of still don’t. Life has been moving at a steady pace and I’m finding myself discovering more about myself as time passes. I don’t have as much patience as I use to. That’s a good thing, though. It just means I’m less apt to put up or deal with certain things. Honestly, I was never really a person to deal with anything when it came to the outside world and the people in it. Mostly, I’d just deal with family and those very close to me, which was also very limited itself. I’m still an insomniac, that hasn’t changed and I suppose it never will. I tend to do a lot of thinking at night, which is completely out of my control. But I’m sure there are some people who can relate to this.

Work has been more tolerable than usual. There would be times I’d sit there counting the minutes until I’m out of there but it virtually flies by now. Maybe it’s because I’m less stressed and on edge like I use to be. I can’t really pinpoint it, but it’s a relief anyway because I was losing my mind in there most of the time.

I think mostly I’m filled with regrets. If only I’d known the kind of things the future would bring, I would have been more selfish when it came to myself. But you live and you learn, I guess. Some lesson, though. I never would have imagined how being less selfish would have made me completely unhappy. That’s a sacrifice the universe fails to reveal until you’re damned near utterly broken. But all in all, when you’ve come to this realization, you start to find peace, even in the little things… things that people take for granted everyday.

Maybe Next Time

I wrote a post yesterday about going back to school. I deleted it, though. I was suppose to start on May 28th, but plans fell through because I ran into some issues, which I plan on getting resolved before the next semester starts, so no big deal. I was disappointed at first, but then I thought that perhaps it’s just not my time right now. This means I’ll have more time to prepare. It only sucks a little bit having to wait but at this point, I have the patience. There’s nothing I can do to speed it up so I’ve convinced myself not to sit around and mope about it. I will admit I felt a little pressured trying to get everything together in such a short time anyhow. So when I really started to think about the situation, I was a little relieved, while being disappointed. Is that possible?

A New Day, A New Me

It’s been a while since I’ve updated, but what’s new? I tend to go longer periods of time updating than I use to. I just don’t always feel like it. Last time I posted, I was talking about how I was going to be making an attempt at decorating my house, my living room, in particular. I’m not much colors and things like that. I stick to pastel colors or just black in general. I do, however, think there are so many things I could do to what I already have, but for now I’m satisfied with the simplified results.

Living Room

Living Room

I love the way that everything looks. I have never really been a person to get bold with colors but I’m sure that one day I’m going to walk in the house and decide that something else needs to be added. I still have yet to hang photos but I plan on getting to that at some point or another.

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